So much favor!

Last time I check, I was very jealous of what other Christians were doing, sharing the vision and soaking themselves on God`d work. Afterwards, I find myself being discipline by the Lord Almighty. I need to go through some painful circumstances, going through the process of maturity. Last Sunday, May 20, I was talking to my disciple shiela and opened my heart to her. I badly need someone to talk to. Aside from the Lord, I need to voice out my burden to someone, I have no intent to pass the burden to them or feel the same way, what I need that time was a listener, and she was there, amazingly, instead that I`ll be the one to cry, she cried for me. I feel so blessed that I have her and she feels me. At night on the same day, I prayed to God and ask him a favor to let me have a job to support some of my financial needs. Of course I can`t do the vision with out provision. So then, I searched and found one, that really suites me. I believe that it is for me and God reserved it. The next day, Monday morning, I send an email and immediately received response, i can`t reply that easily, that time I was thinking if it is really what God wants. I don`t want my excitement/ emotion gets through this, so I sought permission from my parents and they approved. It is God I am thinking, will he approve this? Is this my will or his will? I don`t want to justify myself that I am on the right path, I want God to decide for me.

So the job called and asked me if I`m available on upcoming Sunday, because that is a very very important event. I just said yes, but at the back of my mind "I can't, the reason why I have to take this job is because I want to serve God without asking money from my parents, and now if this job will take me away from God, I will refuse" Till then, I speak no words to my boss. I just trust God and let Him so the super natural work. I was really grateful and happy that I was hired, aside from the salary, I love what I'm doing, it is passion. For two days we cover wedding events and learned a lot of things. I claimed that having a job like that is a great favor from God.

Then Thursday, I went on Pasig at Fire and Harvest Church because there will be an Encounter, another is, my spiritual mother would be there, and I want to witness God`s power, that`s why. And God did not disappoint me. I've got a lot of favor from Him that day. Friday, I also got my favor from God, my disciples and I were very excited to be changed continuously and to attend conferences, wow! It's so amazing. I never expect that I was able to be there, but thanks to God's favor, He let me witness the first day of encounter.

Friday, I met my four disciples. the two of them faces the same problem I had, financial support, but because discipleship is passing on DNA, I told them that If God gave me this job, they will also receive favor from the Lord and get a job that will help them, yet I told them that do not let the job let you go far away from the heart of God. It is God that we prioritize, if you put something first before God, its idolatry. We learned a lot and we're very excited to attend campus harvest on June 8. Wow! So much favor, but wait there's more favor and surprises from the Lord..

Saturday, I received text messages from my work telling that the coverage of the wedding were cancelled out. I was very happy and my feeling was unexplainable. This is How my God moves. He just moves, not so early nor late, just perfect! He is always on time! And I love the way my God works. How He molds me in pain and builds me in His grace and mercy. I love being used by God.

"Kung magpapagamit ka lang din naman, magpagamit ka sa Diyos. Worth it yun. Di ka pa maloloko, eternal ang insurance at assurance! Hallelujah!"

This week, I received so much favor. Time to return it to God Almighty! God bless you!

NAIINGGIT AKO

Marahil masama ang salitang INGGIT. Napaka negative nito. Pero para sa akin kakaibang inggit ang nadarama ko. Sa totoo lang, burned out na ako. Lubog na ako sa pagiging outdated. Alam mo yun! Mahirap makita sa facebook o sa twitter ang mga kapwa mo Christians na super updated, tapos ikaw parang napaglipasan ng panahon. Isang salita lang naman ang nag rema sa akin, "competence". Sa takbuhing ito, kailangan ng competence, pag wala kasing ganoon, i'll stay stagnant, still and stinking. Kadiri yun! Ayoko ng ganoong Christian life. Syempre sa pag blog ko nito, kailangan ko ng solution. Banggitin ko man dito ang problema, aba dapat may solution din ako. Kakabasa ko lang ng ini-email sa akin ni tatay. Isa sa mga preaching niya. Sapul ako! Nakakalimutan ko ang basic, at minsan nate-take for granted. Hindi dapat ganun!

Akala ko dati, porket may vision ka na, ay ok na ang lahat. Kailangan pala updated ka, parang yung nakikita ko sa FB at twitter. Nakakaloka ang mga pino-post. Talagang mapapa-Wow ka! Kapag sila ang fina-followmo, pambihira, mahihiya ka sa ginagawa mo sa ministry. Ang tindi, iisa lang naman ang Diyos namin, pero pambihira ang galaw ng Diyos sa kanila. Its not about comparing, its observing! Through others you could get new ideas and you could update your strategies spiritually or physically.

Isa ang Communication Research student, at isa sa mga iniral ko ay ang Communication Evaluation. We evaluate, kumukuha kami ng information sa mga companies at ini-evaluate namin. Sa evaluation process, we tend to find strengths and weaknesses. Naalala ko pa nga ang SWOT analysis. Naisip ko lang at gusto ko ding gawin. Ia-apply ko ito para sa improvement ng youth namin. After all, mahirap ang katayuan namin, walang youth pastor. Pero ayokong mag compromise at gawing excuse ito. Inspiration ko si Jezreel, isa sa mga napanuod ko sa G12 regional conference. Halos parehas kami ng sitwasyon, ang pagkakaiba lang, magulang nya ang mentor niya at sold out sila sa system. Ako may mentor from other church and thankful na inaalagaan niya ako. Si mommy danna, but I feel so incomplete. Kailangan ko talaga ng feeding, apart from it, kailangan talagang maiayos ang youth namin. From paper to actual.

Umaasa ako, at patuloy na nanalangin, di lang ako hanngang dito. Di lang hanggang dito ang Diyos ko! Di ako tinawag sa ganito, kailangan ko mabuo ang 12 ko, makatapos ng SOL3 at mag level up. Ayokong bumalik sa dati, ayokong mauwi ang lahat sa wala, ayoko na basta nalang nag evaporate lahat ng iniyak ko sa Panginoon. Naiinggit ako dahil gusto ko din mag grow, gusto ko ding maranasan ang nararanasan nila, gusto ko ring gawin ang ginagawa nila, gusto ko rin ma-witness ang Super Great Power ni God. My heart wants it. Alam kong di ganun kadali, patinuan ito ng buhay, di lang yung magandang nangyayari ang haharapin ko, malamang may ups and downs, so I pray, sa "inggit" na ito, may competence na lalabas, may ile-level up pa ang Lord at may matinding kaganapan ang mangyayari na di ko na iisip. Lahat para kay God. I am a servant leader, give me a servant heart Lord, a humble heart. Level up dapat ang FAITH, and VISION, KNOWLDGE, SKILL and CHARACTER!