Pressure Cooker

Life is full of pressure. Barely, it depends on the person's point of view. I'm already 18, does it means that I need to view life like a pressure cooker. I often think of my future, how should I live it, to whom should I spend it, what would be my goals.. Such questions puff out of my head a very long time ago. Since, I am the eldest in our family, I got a lot of indirect pressure from my parents. Who could ever thought there is such thing as indirect pressure. Maybe that's how I view it right now. They don't really directly telling me that I should study hard, pressure comes after I will graduate. My mom and dad expects a lot from me, that I should help them and my brothers. I honestly got that point, and I really have to help my family. But getting indirect pressure gets in my nerves.

My heart desires to serve God. That's my priority and of course to finish my bachelor's degree and help my family going. I have a plan to get my master's degree, but still it will be based on our situation.

Right now, we are currently experiencing shortage on our financial status, most of the people do. I used to hear my friends tell stories about this problems, and even my disciples too are experiencing the same situation. Problems indeed are not permanent, and I should be a problem solver, not a problem maker. I want to find a job that suits me, that can cope with my schedule at school and at church. If nothing is available, I have two choices, first give up the ministry and continue to study, and able to support not only my own needs but my family, secondly, give up on looking for a job, continue to study and wait for God's miracles in my life, that He is faithful and loving, merciful and caring God, that he won't leave us nor forsake us. I don't want to chase after success, I want success chase after me because God has already conquer this world.

I don't have any other choice but to put my confidence to God, that he may turn the pressure cooker into a pressure deliverer, through, taking off the cover and let the steam of my success be a sweet aroma before my King.

*this post is supposedly a TAMPOst, puno ng heartache and suicidal thoughts, pero hindi e. Hindi ito ang gustong ipa-post sa akin ni God, and suicidal thoughts are for losers! I am a winner, though I experience such things, I am still a winner, even the greatest leaders of this world feel bad, get into a pressure cooker, but after they overcome such trials, they become a better person, more mature and more beautiful :) HAHAHA. Thank You po Lord!*

BioMan

This is one of the assignments in my Biology class, our professor wants to help us reflect in our life and somehow, relate it to Biology. I wrote the first draft of this article on a scratch, 3 in the morning, so this is originally what came up to mind, anyway I love writing reflections, so here it is.. Be blessed.

   It was June 21, 3 AM in the morning. I was about to sleep, then biology came up in my mind. I had the idea of writing whatever thoughts I had that time, I need to write it down. That moment I had just finished watching an episode of a Korean drama, a love story in particular. Since, I had watched a story; there was a thought of relating it to Biology. J

   According to my sophomore year at high school, we define biology as study of life and bio as life. It was one of my favorite subjects that time, because of anatomy. I had a dream when I was little to be a nurse, so I get interested with the subject. Since, my vocabulary tells me that Bio means life, and then I must focus on Life. I was born February 23, 1994, 10:45 PM at San Mateo, Rizal, Philippines, living for approximately 6,570 days, 157,680 hrs and 9,460,800 minutes. Too much number for me, but the question is for living a life with these approximate numbers, how do I live it, how do I view it and how can I relate this subject biology in it.

   I remember my classmate in high who told me that, even the smartest person in the world, which is according to him, is Einstein cannot define the word LIFE, whereas, I’ll be defining in my own words now. For 18 yrs old, I view life as something that I should take seriously, yet with fun and enjoyment. When I was in my 1^st year in high school, I remember of asking a question to myself, why do I exist? Having that question unanswerable, I did not search for it for a while. I just continued living a life that is OK, which means, studying, churching and staying at home. Growing in a Christian family, I never thought that I was incomplete, not after I had thought of the same question again when I was 3^rd year High school, why do I really exist? For whom I am living for? It was very irrelevant to answer; I live for my family, friends and whoever someone, come to think of it, what if they all die, who will I be living for? It’s just unacceptable for me. In watching dramas, love stories and whatever type of movies, each character has a role to play. I used to dream of the same love stories I watched from movies and dramas, but I really can’t justify that I should, why? Those stories were written by writers, by human hands. How about my life? Who writes it, who directs it, who will tell my role in this world?

   I keep on doing my routine, an OK life, school, church, house. But then, in one circumstance, it was the year end of 2010, I get tired, is this life? I’ll study and get a degree, get to graduate in college, afterwards work, get married, have children, retire and then die. That moment I remembered God, and prayed. The following day was a decision to take God seriously. Since then, I understand, that even I have the religion, even I church or even I do things that makes me happy, I won’t be happiness, I won’t get satisfaction, not until I personally get to know God, and take Jesus as my Lord and Savior, a life changing decision that will affect my eternity. Since then, life is wonderful, much more appreciated that before. I may say that I once liked to have the life of a character in drama, novel or story, a perfect life, manipulated by script writers, now, I could boldly say, mine is written and directed by my Creator and He is my Bio, I am for Him and He is for me, I am His masterpiece. But knowing who I am does not end there. I need to continue living, in two years of my relationship with my Bio, I found my purpose, His purpose for me. As He changed my life, He will do it to others through me, impossible as it seems but this is the quest, it may sounds “korni” but this is the reason for my existence. Somebody out there might be also wondering of their existence, somebody needs to go and tell them the truth. I am for Him and I am for His people. Life begins and ends from God, my Bioman. J