Genesis 2013

I am the Alpha and the Omega, the First and the Last, the Beginning and the End. — Revelation 22:13 

Sa bawat Ending at Beginning nandoon ang Diyos. Nang matapos ang 2012, naroon Siya at nang mag umpisa ang 2013 naroon din Siya. Ngayong umpisang araw ng 2013 trending muli ang Resolution, Diet at Plano para sa panibagong taong ito.

Dahil gising buong gabi at puyat mula sa pagsalubong ng bagong taon, tanghali na gigising ang karamihan, kagaya ko. Kinasanayan ko na ang mag devotion ng umaga, no devotion no breakfast ang laging iniisip ko pag tinatamad akong mag devotion. Sa taong 2012, ito ang pinaka da best na achievement ko, walang palya na devotion. Kaya ngayong 2013, uumpisahan ko ang umaga sa pag de-devotion.

GENESIS
*excerpt from my devotion 01/01/2013*

In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth. Now the earth was formless and empty, darkness was over the surface of the deep, and the Spirit of God was hovering over the waters.—  Genesis 1:1-2 (NIV)

Madaming bagay ang tiyak na natutunan ng marami sa atin nitong 2012, kaya ngayong 2013 mahalagang alamin kung paano ba magsimula, bukod sa diet program at new year's resolution na tradisyonal na nagaganap bawat pagpapalit ng taon, mag simula tayong kaharap ang Manual ng buhay.

Papaano ba uumpisahan ang 2013?

I consider mo ito, ang bagong taon na ito ay parang isang malaking sulatang papel, walang laman at ang bawat desisyon at galaw mo ang ballpen para maisulat ang 2013. Kung iisipin, ang librong Genesis ay patungkol sa creation, tungkol sa umpisa. Mula dito kukuha ako ng insights kung papaano mag uumpisa ng taon.

GOD CREATED 2013
"In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth"

Katulad ng pag gawa ng Diyos sa langit at lupa, nilikha Niya din ang 2013. Itatak sa iyong isip na ang taong ito ay likha ng Diyos, Siya ang author at may ari ng taong ito. Taon Niya ito, hindi ito taon ng ahas! Corrupted ang mundo, kaya ngayong taon wag nang makisawsaw. Maniwala at I-deklara mong ang 2013 ay para sa Diyos at ito ay para din sa iyo. Umpisahan mo ang taong ito kasama ang Tagapaglikha.

EMPTY AND FORMLESS 

"Now the earth was formless and empty,"

Ang mundo nung umpisa ay empty at formless. Sa 11 hours na nakalipas, tiyak na may nakasulat na sa sulating buhay 2013 mo. Pero sa kabila nito may dalawang bagay ang mahalang gawin para umpisahan ang 2013.

I-empty ang buhay mo.

Hindi mapupuno ang isang basong may laman, kailangang ibuhos ito hanggang sa wala nang matira. Ang pag empty ng buhay ay pag bubukas ng puso sa Diyos para punan ang buhay mo, paglimot at pag-gi-give up. Diyos din ang mag e-empty ng buhay natin, umpisahan ang taong ito sa paghingin ng tulong sa Diyos na i-empty ang buhay natin.

Hayaan ang Diyos na i-form ang 2013 mo

Kung ang mundo ay formless noong creation, gayun din ang 2013. Tanging ang Diyos ang mag-aayos nito. Wala pang shape o design o framework ang 2013, pero may foundation ka naman, ang DIYOS.

Let God forms your mind, heart, character and life. Yung formation na kahit masakit, mapapabuti ka naman, yung formation na i-le-level up ka pa at yung formation na pagagandahin at pagagwapuhin ka pa ng sobra dahil nakikita at nag-ra-radiate sa buhay mo ang Diyos.

Kapag ginagamit ang emptiness at formless, di ko maiwasang maisip ang isang broken emo picture, ang lungkot, pero wait, there's more! May twist sa mga salitang ito. Kelangan mong maging broken sa harap ng Diyos para mabuo ka muli, para Siya ang maging solusyon mo sa lahat ng aspeto ng buhay. Ito yung brokeness na magli-lead sa wholeness. "darkness was over the surface of the deep"

LET THE SPIRIT OF GOD HOVER OVER 2013

"And the Spirit of God was hovering over the waters"

Ang espiritu ng Diyos ay umiikot at lumilibot sa ibabaw ng tubig. Ngayon, hayaan mong ang Espiritu ng Diyos ang umihip at bigyan ng buhay ang 2013 mo. Importante ang Spirit of God sa pag-uumpisa ng taon mo.

Pag may presensya ng Holy Spirit:

There is power, kapangyarihan na bumubuo ng sangkatauhan. Kung noong creation, buong mundo ang ginawa, mani lang kay God ang 2013. Umpisahan ang 2013 kasama si Holy Spirit, may power, may holiness , may matinding impact na mangyayari.

There you'll hear God's voice, sa mga sumusunod na verses ng chapter 1 ng Genesis, walang ibang ginawa si God kung hindi magsalita nung ginawa nya ang mundo, liban dito yung pag create nya sa tao. sa 2013, maging sensitibo sa LET THERE BE ni God. Importanteng naririnig natin ang utos ng Diyos, at kung may salita meron din;

There is obedience, kapag may presensya ng Banal na Espiritu may pagsunod. Nangyayari ang mga sinasabi ni God, yung let there be Niya at nakikita at nasisilayan, di lang basta salita, may gawa. Kapag na master natin ang Art of Obedience, di malabong mangyayari ang true purpose ng Diyos nung nilikha nya ang tao bago pa mabahidan ng kasalan, ito ay binanggit sa verse 26 at 27

So God said, "Let is make man in our image, in our likeness....""So God created man in his own image, in the image of God he created him; male and female he created"

Yun yung very purpose ni God, yung tayo in His image and likeness. Susi ang pagsunod para mangyari ito. Through His Son Jesus Christ magiging extremely extraordinary ang 2013. This year, ito ang pangako na pinanghahawakan ko sa pag uumpisa ng taong ito. Gen.1:28, The blessing of fruitfulness(in the ministry, in family, in school, in every area of my life), and of authority (leadership).

Welcome 2013! Thank You Jesus! :)

I am a threat

November 30, 2012

12:45 AM

I had a grand and enormous encounter with the Lord tonight. I never thought that it could make this kind of impact to the point that my family was being used by the enemy to stop me. This excites me, I believe that satan wants to stop me because I’m about to do something really great for the kingdom advancement.

Early this day, nothing was so special. I had to wake up early to get ready for school, and as usual, no professor came up to meet us. The only thing I could look up into is our Women empowerment, but it was 7:30pm. I have a lot of arguments in mind, first, my dad hates me to go home late, and secondly, my body wants to go home and rest, third, my friends and block mates ask me to hang out with them in landmark Makati. I was honestly thinking of going home when I arrived at araneta. I had to kill time, coz cannot go early at AHCC, its too early, as if there is something bad on being too much early.

So I decided and went to the women empowerment, all that was in my mind is this, “sayang naman kasi yung matututunan ko ngayon doon”. Plain as that, I went and go thru heavy traffic at EDSA. I won’t do something like this if it is not for the Lord. I want to learn that’s all I want, that is my motive on going there, though I have no disciples with me.

I have no idea that God would really speak to me there. I thought it would be just another learning, waiting to be set aside. But no!

I have been stagnant for almost 6 months. I felt giving up on the ministry since we lost our youth pastor, but gain hope when mentoring started. I am very thankful that I am one of the disciples of mommy danna, for someone who is forcefully advancing the kingdom of God, it is a really great privilege. It reminds me of Elijah and Elisha. I thought that it will go well with me; I have to suffer from a lot of discomfort inside the church and also from my own parents. My dad have nothing against on me attending the mentoring, it just that, he is against the time when I get home.

Tonight, God showed me 4 things. I am  good. I know that, I do have my devotion and still coping with the core values. Before the event started, I talked to the person next to me, that was Ate Rona, one of my sister in Fire Harvest Church in Pasig. I told her that my prophetic name was GREAT, that’s what I got from my encounter with the Lord. Then, the speaker stood up and said that we will all be talking about promotion. Level up, from good to great. It didn’t hit me, not until the altar call.

Before I went to the front, I am still and praying, God knows my heart and my desire. I just don’t want to cry, I want to be found by my Savior. Then, the speaker calls for the people who desire to speak, to cry out, to ask God. I hurriedly step my feet and face fell down. Its been so long since I was broken at the feet of Jesus. I just want to be found that’s all. I am tired of being unfruitful and useless to God’s kingdom, I am exhausted of hearing and hearing, but not doing. I want to level up in the field of DOING, as I desire it, I search my heart if what is important to my God is important to me as well, I ask God to allow me hear his heart and feel its every beat. I was refreshed, the vision of winning souls in matthew 28:19-20, I claimed it, more than I claim it before. I was hurt and discourage by my past cell groups and current disciples, but God change my course, my path on how should I see discipleship. It is a way of life, that should be enjoyed, that should be cherished. The speaker said that, “for me being a discipler is the greatest profession of all.”

I step out of the church with a peaceful heart, knowing that I would be great in every area of my life, and I am fully aware of the time, it was 10pm, and I may not be able to catch the last trip of shuttle service in our subdivision. But I asked God to intervene, and help me out with this. Surprisingly, I had to go through heavy traffic at EDSA, it was merely 10:45, I was stuck in cubao, and again need to battle with the super mega ultra traffic ahead of us. I was praying, and expecting that my dad would be mad at me. After 2 hours of my journey going home, my dad said that he wanted to talk to me. Before I do so, I talk to God and ask him to give me self control, to help me respect my parents and to show them that I respect their authorities, whatever that my dad would tell me, I just need to accept it and ask for forgiveness. (it sounds really easy, but it’s not)

My dad asked me “ano ba talaga plano mo”, with a really serious tone. I know that he wants to hear something from me, something that I need to choose between mentoring and my respect to his authority. I really feel that I am on trial, but I understand, I really do. That’s why I kept silent. Then I answered, “galing po ako ng mentoring”. Then he started telling me things about the crime around us, pastor’s kid raped or women killed because of going home late. I can never blame a father to care for his daughter, that’s his job and responsibility. So I kept my mouth shut and my ears open. I want to understand them as long as I could. Then he said “mamili ka, mag aaral ka o mag-papastor ka?” then my tears fell, as if being a pastor is a crime, I am not called to be a pastor, I just don’t want to be just plain Christian with plain God. Christianity is an adventure with the Lord, I want to be a disciple maker and a disciple as well. With the vision of God, I found my life worth living. Then I said “mag-aaral po” because that is the right thing to say and should be done. When somebody decide to be a pastor, he does not need to give up his chosen course, education per se, being a pastor is not an excuse to leave school. He added, “di talaga kita maintindihan, kung ano takbo ng isip mo, kung ano ba talaga ang plano mo” and again he said, as if the final verdict, “susunod ka o hindi” with a cracking voice and eyes full of tears I replied “susunod po”.

Respecting my parents shows that I respect my God, though it seems that it was against what I want to do. I want to learn more, and to be discipled by my spiritual mother. If I go against my father, I will be rebellious, and whatever I may learn from the mentoring would be useless. For now, I trust His will and I am very excited what God stores for me. If I am not a threat to Satan, I would not be experiencing this. Thank You Lord because I can feel right now that I will play a great role for your kingdom and I will be able to live up with my prophetic name GREAT.  Glory to You Mighty God! Thank you for the Cross!

When I saw a shooting star

Little lights that shines above the dark sky, paint me with a smile.

I see you pass by, wiping the night aside

Momentarily, I thought about something nice

Maybe that’s the reason I see you tonight

At once I was star struck

Overwhelmingly, I forgot to wish

In a glimpse on an eye, you say goodbye

I gaze around me,

And saw no one with me,

No one to prove what I witness

First time I saw you, feels like the very last

And every time I stare at the dark sky

Please starry lights, next time you fall

Make me witness once at all.

Trying hard to write the right rite of writing

Nais kong may maisulat, pero walang matinong paksa ang gustong magpasulat. Para kang nakikipag habul-habulan sa tren, ako nag taya, siya ang hahabuli. Nakakapagod, at para bang mauubos na ang brain cells mo sa kakapiga ng lalabas na topic sa isipan mo. Minsan kahit walang kwenta ang bagay gusto mong isulat, isusulat mo pa din para hasain ang sarili sa mga letra at salita. Mahirap ata mabuhay ng walang nasasabi, pero labas dito ang mga pipi. Hanga ako sa kanila, kaya nilang ilabas ang lahat ng emosyon para makipag-communicate. Kaya naniniwala ako na kayak o din mailabas ang emosyon galing sa mga letra at salita. Kaya to, tiwala lang. May maiisusulat din akong worth it at kakaiba. Naalala ko tuloy ang payo ng propesor ko dati sa Retorika, magsulat daw kami ng madaling araw, yung tipong naalimpungatan kaya ka nagising. Kahit ano daw ang nasa isip mo, isulat mo lang. Sabi niya din, wag daw edit ng edit habang binubuo mo ang iyong likha, tapusin daw muna ang sinusilat tsaka ayusin. Mga simple payo mula sa aking simple propesor. Kaya din ako nahihirapan magsulat dahilan na din na walang direksyon ang pinupunto. Kung sa pagsasalita ay may goal tayo na pag persuade to be understood, ganun din siguro sa writing. Nga pala, this is a free a democratic country, exercising freedom of expression should be practice, kahit ina-amyendahan pa ang Cyber Crime Law. Sabi din ng kasalukuyang mentor ko, “wag kayong titigil sa pagsusulat, kahit walang pumapansin”. Tama nga naman si Sir, keep on writing, dadating din ang panahon na mapapansin ako sa muntin kong talento. Sa bagay, ang talent di lang naman in-born, meron din naming acquired at passion diba? Gusto kong mahalin ang pagsusulat, kagaya ng pagmamahal ko sa paghawak ng lente ng camera. Nais kong magsulat at mag direct ng mga kwentong nangyari sa tunay na buhay, naniniwala kasi ako na mas makapangyarihan sa mga mambabasa at manunuod ang mga bagay na inspired ng ibang tao, at least hindi ito kuro-kuro o theory. Nakuha ko ang prinsipyong ito sa movie film na chasing liberty. Masaya na ma-experience mo personally ang isang bagay at magsilbi iyong inspirasyon para sa ibang tao. Ayan, may naisulat na din ako sa wakas. Kahit papano, mag patutunguhan pa din ang sulatin na ito. Lagi lang tandaan ang rule no.9 always bring your notebook ang your spare pen.

Oha! Good night. *parang diary type lang ito, better think harder to change the way I write! Aja! Fighting!*

The Epic Fail Scenario

Education, according to my professor in Political Governance and Politics, is a privilege that must be seized. It is absolutely important for everyone since it makes our lives better. A tweet from Bob Ong Quotes says that “dalawang dekada ka nalang papasok sa eskwela, kung di mo pa pagtatyagaan, limang dekada kang maghihirap at magdurusa. Kung alam lang ito ng bawat estudyante sa Pilipinas, lulubusin nilang mag aral”. It did make a strong point of view in education and how should we take it in life; hence, it is the key for success. People get to school for the main purpose of learning, passing and achieving, in like manner, who on earth will spend his time to go in an institution like school with no intention as such as these, or if not, will purposely fail all his subjects. Well that my friend, is insanity. A pre-school student may not understand deeply the essence of education, the child may think of it as a place where he could have fun and enjoy his life. A child gets excited of getting to school, but it changes as he grows. School more becomes a place to acquire friends, heart partners or enemies. Inside a classroom, ambiance depends on how the students perceive the quintessence of that institution. I personally experience a situation where I myself want to set an atmosphere inside the class. For GCs or also known as grade conscious, the competitive spirit must be the thing that makes us alive, a drug that keep us  going towards an extra mile, even go beyond our limitation and might step on someone else’s territory. For every class with GCs, the atmosphere is war and downgrade syndrome; however, for every class with IDCs or I Don’t Care students, their means of passing and learning are cheating and dropping. This is school, an establishment, a place where there is team work, consumerism of test answers, friends with profit and individualism etc.

Studying is hard even for a pre-school or a grade school student. It just becomes easy for us when we have a deep understanding on our lessons we had before. At this point where age can be a license for a deeper perceptive of insights, they would be able to handle more difficult situations in life, specially for college students, whereas, school is like a tenebrous park with supernatural creatures around. This park is full of pressures and stress; these things compel the student to see the supernatural creatures that give out fear. But it’s not just the negative side alone, students moreover needs to view college as a door that opens greater opportunities in life. On the contrary getting to that door is not as easy as it looks, the map may show a short cut, yet it could be dangerous, likewise in tertiary education.

Some professors are like rose, pretty yet thorny and when you tried to get in touch with it you’ll get yourself hurt. Inside the classroom, professor changes attitude. He could be cool and friendly, and could also be your furious enemy. Hi magical marker can change your life.  Once he entered class, it’s like an angel had descended from heaven came in to teach them lessons, either in good or hard way. Everyone’s silent and trying to catch up with that he is telling. He teaches not only his subject, but as well as life principles. He’s unpredictable and a good man at the moment. Every semester is a challenge to get the heart of every professor to avoid violence and conflict and the class effort to retain that peace is a very amusing. But crisis always takes picture in every story, a gloomy and dark atmosphere covers the whole class as he changes the mood, seriousness and sadness is there, reclining on chair becomes a sin, heads should be all down to make him relent his anger. Education is not just about reading books and reviewing notes, sometimes reading and reviewing the professor is a safety precautionary measure not to fail.  After countless days, judgments must takes place. Pass or fail the magical and intriguing question that captures every soul. But, remember that even at the end, twists are never new to everyone. “I am holding your grades, see you next semester!”

No one plan to not make the grade, yet Epic fail! Education indeed is a privilege, never take it for granted, likewise, work is a privilege, never ever abuse it. Make rooms for second chance, education are not meant for failure, but for every failure comes new and improve individuals that will seize every moment inside an institution.

Hello August

Hello august 1. Its been a while, I almost forgot to update this blog. Well anyways, trending sa twitter kanina ang mga katagang #MyAugustWish at Goodbye July and Hello August. What do I look forward this month? Kailangan ko ng short term goal para maging maayos ang lahat, sa ministry, sa school, part time job and family ko. Gosssh! God will really beat my body! Top priority ko ang God, and his ministry. This month, I dream to passionately spend my time with my King. Level up ang prayer life, doon dapat ako humugot ng hininga. As if Im gonna die kapag walang prayer. It is a sin not to pray! Kaya this august, God will establish a prayer culture in me. PRAYER LAHAT! Sa ministry, sa family, sa school and sa work.

Sa ministry, what would I look forward this august, First, that I may win and take good care of the flocks God gave me. BSBA I-C, Education Major in English, freshmen and of course, Chris, Verhel, Jerome, and Ednalyn, isama pa ang Mother dear ni Verhel. Waaah! Lord, this month, what would be our target? And di pwedeng cell group lang, dapat may patunguhan po sila! Si Mei, Ariane and another ariene, Jovi and Sharmaine! Ang dami Lord, what should I do. I’m planning and praying to buy 10 strong cell topics, and iyon ang ituro ko sa mga anak ko ngayon... kelangan ko un this week, so I must see kuya ariel or text some people sa history makers. J Kelangan gumawa ng paraan and I desrire to buy the Campus Harvest CD Lord, give it to us puhleaaaseee! :D

Aside from caring for these flocks, I look forward for a better youth program every Sunday afternoon, as well as my part time mentoring with ptr. Molmisa, since online interaction palang di pa ganun na hectic ang sched ko, but I look forward din na ma-meet ko sila. Anyways, I also pray na di ako pabayaan ni Mommy danna, siya nalang ang nanay ko, so I pray that she would be accountable to me. As in di lang sya mentor, pero nanay talaga.

Sa School, I look forward for a busy schedule yet di makakaapekto sa cell groups ko and sa part time ko. I love what Im learning this semester, specially world literature, kahit na alam ko pede akong maapektuhan spiritually ng mga binabasa ko, kelangan ko lang mag pagpag ng mga na-aacquire kong mga bagay. I also look forward for progress sa character ni Pink, Julie, Chico, and Gen. I pray na madala ko sila sa The Big Night, To win them! Kinakabahan at natatakot ako, this shows na without God I am nothing and I can do nothing without His favor. Spirit of God I pray and expect to see you move more sa COC, I intend to pray for the whole august for COC, campus harvest na kasi e. I have to do something for the Kingdom of God.

Another to my family, I look forward this august that my mom worry will lessen! Utang na loob Lord, I wanna hear something different, good different from her, not complains but praising your name because You are faithful to us! I pray that You level her faith, and that she may see that You’re the God who gives and takes away. I also wants to witness how you change or characters, from me to my brothers, to see Cj and Yanyan to pray without reminding them. Or even I can t see them, as long as they pray and do their devotions. Lord open our eyes so we could see. Help my family to be faithful in our tithes and offering. Lord yo deserve so much more! You deserve only the best, let my family bring the best worship before You. Not only in singing or playing the instrument, but our life as sweet aroma before you.

Goodbye failure this august, I`ll be victorious. Thank you Lord for another project at my part time job, we`ll have our cover this Aug 11, 12 and 18. I wont be attending the 2 events, yung 18 lang po Lord. Conflict yun sa Saturday cell group ko, but I pray na ma-meet ko within the week before yung event yunng cell group ko, mga Tuesday siguro. I have to look for ways para si apektado ang cell grop. Lord together lez do this, lez find ways to fix these stuff.

This august, magkakaroon ng patutunguhan ang cell group ko. Magse-set kao ng target knowledge and manifestation sa kanila Lord. Before august, dapat lahat sila sure na sa salvation nila and atleast, half of them nagde-devotion na! :DD

October Lord, I`m asking for a favor, na may mapadala ako sa encounter! Waaaaa.. My heart gets excited for august! C`mon Lord! Lez do all this! And my august wish Lord, if you will give it po, SLR J Kahit yung mura lang po Lord, I want it so bad.  Least of all my desires.

Pressure Cooker

Life is full of pressure. Barely, it depends on the person's point of view. I'm already 18, does it means that I need to view life like a pressure cooker. I often think of my future, how should I live it, to whom should I spend it, what would be my goals.. Such questions puff out of my head a very long time ago. Since, I am the eldest in our family, I got a lot of indirect pressure from my parents. Who could ever thought there is such thing as indirect pressure. Maybe that's how I view it right now. They don't really directly telling me that I should study hard, pressure comes after I will graduate. My mom and dad expects a lot from me, that I should help them and my brothers. I honestly got that point, and I really have to help my family. But getting indirect pressure gets in my nerves.

My heart desires to serve God. That's my priority and of course to finish my bachelor's degree and help my family going. I have a plan to get my master's degree, but still it will be based on our situation.

Right now, we are currently experiencing shortage on our financial status, most of the people do. I used to hear my friends tell stories about this problems, and even my disciples too are experiencing the same situation. Problems indeed are not permanent, and I should be a problem solver, not a problem maker. I want to find a job that suits me, that can cope with my schedule at school and at church. If nothing is available, I have two choices, first give up the ministry and continue to study, and able to support not only my own needs but my family, secondly, give up on looking for a job, continue to study and wait for God's miracles in my life, that He is faithful and loving, merciful and caring God, that he won't leave us nor forsake us. I don't want to chase after success, I want success chase after me because God has already conquer this world.

I don't have any other choice but to put my confidence to God, that he may turn the pressure cooker into a pressure deliverer, through, taking off the cover and let the steam of my success be a sweet aroma before my King.

*this post is supposedly a TAMPOst, puno ng heartache and suicidal thoughts, pero hindi e. Hindi ito ang gustong ipa-post sa akin ni God, and suicidal thoughts are for losers! I am a winner, though I experience such things, I am still a winner, even the greatest leaders of this world feel bad, get into a pressure cooker, but after they overcome such trials, they become a better person, more mature and more beautiful :) HAHAHA. Thank You po Lord!*

BioMan

This is one of the assignments in my Biology class, our professor wants to help us reflect in our life and somehow, relate it to Biology. I wrote the first draft of this article on a scratch, 3 in the morning, so this is originally what came up to mind, anyway I love writing reflections, so here it is.. Be blessed.

   It was June 21, 3 AM in the morning. I was about to sleep, then biology came up in my mind. I had the idea of writing whatever thoughts I had that time, I need to write it down. That moment I had just finished watching an episode of a Korean drama, a love story in particular. Since, I had watched a story; there was a thought of relating it to Biology. J

   According to my sophomore year at high school, we define biology as study of life and bio as life. It was one of my favorite subjects that time, because of anatomy. I had a dream when I was little to be a nurse, so I get interested with the subject. Since, my vocabulary tells me that Bio means life, and then I must focus on Life. I was born February 23, 1994, 10:45 PM at San Mateo, Rizal, Philippines, living for approximately 6,570 days, 157,680 hrs and 9,460,800 minutes. Too much number for me, but the question is for living a life with these approximate numbers, how do I live it, how do I view it and how can I relate this subject biology in it.

   I remember my classmate in high who told me that, even the smartest person in the world, which is according to him, is Einstein cannot define the word LIFE, whereas, I’ll be defining in my own words now. For 18 yrs old, I view life as something that I should take seriously, yet with fun and enjoyment. When I was in my 1^st year in high school, I remember of asking a question to myself, why do I exist? Having that question unanswerable, I did not search for it for a while. I just continued living a life that is OK, which means, studying, churching and staying at home. Growing in a Christian family, I never thought that I was incomplete, not after I had thought of the same question again when I was 3^rd year High school, why do I really exist? For whom I am living for? It was very irrelevant to answer; I live for my family, friends and whoever someone, come to think of it, what if they all die, who will I be living for? It’s just unacceptable for me. In watching dramas, love stories and whatever type of movies, each character has a role to play. I used to dream of the same love stories I watched from movies and dramas, but I really can’t justify that I should, why? Those stories were written by writers, by human hands. How about my life? Who writes it, who directs it, who will tell my role in this world?

   I keep on doing my routine, an OK life, school, church, house. But then, in one circumstance, it was the year end of 2010, I get tired, is this life? I’ll study and get a degree, get to graduate in college, afterwards work, get married, have children, retire and then die. That moment I remembered God, and prayed. The following day was a decision to take God seriously. Since then, I understand, that even I have the religion, even I church or even I do things that makes me happy, I won’t be happiness, I won’t get satisfaction, not until I personally get to know God, and take Jesus as my Lord and Savior, a life changing decision that will affect my eternity. Since then, life is wonderful, much more appreciated that before. I may say that I once liked to have the life of a character in drama, novel or story, a perfect life, manipulated by script writers, now, I could boldly say, mine is written and directed by my Creator and He is my Bio, I am for Him and He is for me, I am His masterpiece. But knowing who I am does not end there. I need to continue living, in two years of my relationship with my Bio, I found my purpose, His purpose for me. As He changed my life, He will do it to others through me, impossible as it seems but this is the quest, it may sounds “korni” but this is the reason for my existence. Somebody out there might be also wondering of their existence, somebody needs to go and tell them the truth. I am for Him and I am for His people. Life begins and ends from God, my Bioman. J

So much favor!

Last time I check, I was very jealous of what other Christians were doing, sharing the vision and soaking themselves on God`d work. Afterwards, I find myself being discipline by the Lord Almighty. I need to go through some painful circumstances, going through the process of maturity. Last Sunday, May 20, I was talking to my disciple shiela and opened my heart to her. I badly need someone to talk to. Aside from the Lord, I need to voice out my burden to someone, I have no intent to pass the burden to them or feel the same way, what I need that time was a listener, and she was there, amazingly, instead that I`ll be the one to cry, she cried for me. I feel so blessed that I have her and she feels me. At night on the same day, I prayed to God and ask him a favor to let me have a job to support some of my financial needs. Of course I can`t do the vision with out provision. So then, I searched and found one, that really suites me. I believe that it is for me and God reserved it. The next day, Monday morning, I send an email and immediately received response, i can`t reply that easily, that time I was thinking if it is really what God wants. I don`t want my excitement/ emotion gets through this, so I sought permission from my parents and they approved. It is God I am thinking, will he approve this? Is this my will or his will? I don`t want to justify myself that I am on the right path, I want God to decide for me.

So the job called and asked me if I`m available on upcoming Sunday, because that is a very very important event. I just said yes, but at the back of my mind "I can't, the reason why I have to take this job is because I want to serve God without asking money from my parents, and now if this job will take me away from God, I will refuse" Till then, I speak no words to my boss. I just trust God and let Him so the super natural work. I was really grateful and happy that I was hired, aside from the salary, I love what I'm doing, it is passion. For two days we cover wedding events and learned a lot of things. I claimed that having a job like that is a great favor from God.

Then Thursday, I went on Pasig at Fire and Harvest Church because there will be an Encounter, another is, my spiritual mother would be there, and I want to witness God`s power, that`s why. And God did not disappoint me. I've got a lot of favor from Him that day. Friday, I also got my favor from God, my disciples and I were very excited to be changed continuously and to attend conferences, wow! It's so amazing. I never expect that I was able to be there, but thanks to God's favor, He let me witness the first day of encounter.

Friday, I met my four disciples. the two of them faces the same problem I had, financial support, but because discipleship is passing on DNA, I told them that If God gave me this job, they will also receive favor from the Lord and get a job that will help them, yet I told them that do not let the job let you go far away from the heart of God. It is God that we prioritize, if you put something first before God, its idolatry. We learned a lot and we're very excited to attend campus harvest on June 8. Wow! So much favor, but wait there's more favor and surprises from the Lord..

Saturday, I received text messages from my work telling that the coverage of the wedding were cancelled out. I was very happy and my feeling was unexplainable. This is How my God moves. He just moves, not so early nor late, just perfect! He is always on time! And I love the way my God works. How He molds me in pain and builds me in His grace and mercy. I love being used by God.

"Kung magpapagamit ka lang din naman, magpagamit ka sa Diyos. Worth it yun. Di ka pa maloloko, eternal ang insurance at assurance! Hallelujah!"

This week, I received so much favor. Time to return it to God Almighty! God bless you!

NAIINGGIT AKO

Marahil masama ang salitang INGGIT. Napaka negative nito. Pero para sa akin kakaibang inggit ang nadarama ko. Sa totoo lang, burned out na ako. Lubog na ako sa pagiging outdated. Alam mo yun! Mahirap makita sa facebook o sa twitter ang mga kapwa mo Christians na super updated, tapos ikaw parang napaglipasan ng panahon. Isang salita lang naman ang nag rema sa akin, "competence". Sa takbuhing ito, kailangan ng competence, pag wala kasing ganoon, i'll stay stagnant, still and stinking. Kadiri yun! Ayoko ng ganoong Christian life. Syempre sa pag blog ko nito, kailangan ko ng solution. Banggitin ko man dito ang problema, aba dapat may solution din ako. Kakabasa ko lang ng ini-email sa akin ni tatay. Isa sa mga preaching niya. Sapul ako! Nakakalimutan ko ang basic, at minsan nate-take for granted. Hindi dapat ganun!

Akala ko dati, porket may vision ka na, ay ok na ang lahat. Kailangan pala updated ka, parang yung nakikita ko sa FB at twitter. Nakakaloka ang mga pino-post. Talagang mapapa-Wow ka! Kapag sila ang fina-followmo, pambihira, mahihiya ka sa ginagawa mo sa ministry. Ang tindi, iisa lang naman ang Diyos namin, pero pambihira ang galaw ng Diyos sa kanila. Its not about comparing, its observing! Through others you could get new ideas and you could update your strategies spiritually or physically.

Isa ang Communication Research student, at isa sa mga iniral ko ay ang Communication Evaluation. We evaluate, kumukuha kami ng information sa mga companies at ini-evaluate namin. Sa evaluation process, we tend to find strengths and weaknesses. Naalala ko pa nga ang SWOT analysis. Naisip ko lang at gusto ko ding gawin. Ia-apply ko ito para sa improvement ng youth namin. After all, mahirap ang katayuan namin, walang youth pastor. Pero ayokong mag compromise at gawing excuse ito. Inspiration ko si Jezreel, isa sa mga napanuod ko sa G12 regional conference. Halos parehas kami ng sitwasyon, ang pagkakaiba lang, magulang nya ang mentor niya at sold out sila sa system. Ako may mentor from other church and thankful na inaalagaan niya ako. Si mommy danna, but I feel so incomplete. Kailangan ko talaga ng feeding, apart from it, kailangan talagang maiayos ang youth namin. From paper to actual.

Umaasa ako, at patuloy na nanalangin, di lang ako hanngang dito. Di lang hanggang dito ang Diyos ko! Di ako tinawag sa ganito, kailangan ko mabuo ang 12 ko, makatapos ng SOL3 at mag level up. Ayokong bumalik sa dati, ayokong mauwi ang lahat sa wala, ayoko na basta nalang nag evaporate lahat ng iniyak ko sa Panginoon. Naiinggit ako dahil gusto ko din mag grow, gusto ko ding maranasan ang nararanasan nila, gusto ko ring gawin ang ginagawa nila, gusto ko rin ma-witness ang Super Great Power ni God. My heart wants it. Alam kong di ganun kadali, patinuan ito ng buhay, di lang yung magandang nangyayari ang haharapin ko, malamang may ups and downs, so I pray, sa "inggit" na ito, may competence na lalabas, may ile-level up pa ang Lord at may matinding kaganapan ang mangyayari na di ko na iisip. Lahat para kay God. I am a servant leader, give me a servant heart Lord, a humble heart. Level up dapat ang FAITH, and VISION, KNOWLDGE, SKILL and CHARACTER!